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2008-01-17T11:53:00.000+08:00

ii m so sorri ! didnt blog for almost 2wks . bascially is stil lazy to blog . LOLS . too bz entertaining my bf , my frens n my job =D tis gonna b a super long update . but i tried to summary bit by bit .

31dec07 - 6jan08

mon = off wrk at 7pm . bibi came n fetch mi hm . my mum sae wanna c him den ask him up to our hse . i went to prep n off we go to dear's frens hse for steamboat as well as countdown . dun reali noe dem well , kidda abit paiseh . but bi stil made his effort to entertain mi . had a small argument n we teared . everything ok ler . ton over at xi qing hse . mrning bibi stil fetch mi hm for breakfast den he went back hm =D

tue = changed off day wif my colleague . we both slept till 3pm . dear came over to my hse , ate mum food den acc mi go bpp buy ingredient for jelly . for jus 3hrs nia . den 6+pm he haf to go back hm for dinner wif his relative n family . miss dear .

wed = took mc jus to pei bibi . morning i cab down to bi's hse , suprised him wif my home-made jelly at 7am ! slp n cuddle b4 we head to mac for breakfast . dear sae my jelly is nice =D after tt pei dear go wrk at bishan . after tt i went back hm myself . cleaned my whole rm by myself . waitin for bi to come over n c but he ended his wrk at almost 11pm . so tough lor e job . xin ku dear ler .

thur = took my off in lieu for nov 8 de. dear came in e morning . we both slept till 12pm . went to bt batok interview for handfone shop , ate lunch at westmall n watched movie . super boring lors stupid show . mi n bi almost fall asleep inside . LOLS . after tt went to IMM shop shop . hais . today we both so sway . bi kana fined $200 for . . . dun bother to sae ler . jus veri sian , spoilt our mood . but in e end , ah bi stil put on a smile on my face as well as his =))

fri = mrning bi came over n had breakfast wif mi b4 he head to bt batok to wrk . in e end , e boss veri nasty n xialan lar . instead of boss sacking dear , dear sacked him first . LOLS . den he was so angry nors . at nite bi came over n fetch mi hm frm wrk n we bought supper hm to eat wif mum .

sat = i overslept , took cab over to wrk . $3.20 nia . LOLS . but more expen den last time . last time onli at most $2.90 wake my piggy up to ask him go ubi take his pay . after tt he came n acc me for lunch . bi treat mi eat korean food den after wrk , movie wif dear n dear's buddies , supper n pool . reached hm at 6am lors . super tired . ah bi slept over at my hse .

sun = too tired to wrk till i wrked till 430pm den i went back hm . but dear stil came over to pei mi hm for dinner wif my mum . poor baby , haf to sit on e chair to take nap whr i slp on my bed =x hee . love dear so much .

7jan08 - 13jan07

mon = morning bibi came over acc mi , pei mi go wrk n acc mi for breakfast . at nite dear came n fetch mi hm again . he is such a swit laogong lar . love him to bits . no guys had treat mi so lovely b4 . he is e 1st one n wil b last =D

tue = morning bi took cab over . ate breakfast le den bi fetch mi go wrk , he went to interview . den after interview , he came back n acc mi for lunch . mummy happened to come find mi oso den 3 of us head over to ntuc to shop for grocery lors . took 1hr+ to shop JUS ntuc nia lors . super power . bought quite alot of food , den i cant go back cos i stil wrking den bibi pei my mum hm . helped her carry all those stuffs hm, shui bian help mi take my jacket for mi =D aint he swit ? which guy willing to pei gf's mum hm like tt de . usually is gf pei bf's mum go shopping etc . tis is e opposite . n it made mi love him even more =)) thanks dear .

wed = off day ! i went over to dear's hse in e mrning . hug n slept till 11+am , ate mac for lunch den we head over to JE for pool n wait for hor ping to rch . hor ping drove us to adam's hse for mahjong . had fun playing mahjong . been hell long since i last played . super sux lar . i so paiseh . i kip do wrong but they nv blame mi . jus close 1 eye =x haha ! in e end , i stil won $3 . dinner n pool wif dear n horping . went arcade find ivan's gf who is my da sao lar . den played abit of arcade den dear fetch mi hm again . my dear so tired ler yet he stil took e effort to fetch mi hm safely . aiya , simply cant leave w/o him ler . hee .

thur = off day again ! morning facial appointment at 1130am at yishun . bi came over at 2pm+ to fetch mi . mit up wif my mum n ate lunch tgt .after tt bi n i went queensway . dear bought shoes n pant . mit up wif krissy n kyrene at marina square . bo bian . my dear wanna go c his small gf . haha ! kyrene is so smart n cute lors . we had fun hanging ard wif dem =] they r my bestest frens n baby ! n i m veri hapi tt my bf n my fren can mix tgt . dear is kyrene's big bf , n nai ma =x hee !

fri = bad day for us . mrning bi came over n had breakfast tgt . fetch mi to wrk den he went back hm . i didnt noe tt my bi alrdy veri tired ler yet i stil demand him to come n acc back hm for lunch . had a big quarrel . dear was real mad at mi . til i teared , till i duno wad to do . dear was super angry wif mi till he dun wan ans my call or sms mi . i was so scared tt he will leave mi . luckily at nite , his buddies jio him out for movie at JE . dear came over to fetch mi over . watched 'american gangster' wif dem . supper n got bk hm at 330am . im sorri dear . i promise i wont do tt again . n dear accepted my apology n we r back to normal n even more switer =D dear , u r someone who i reali nid , who reali meant alot to mi . i will treasure u even more de . jask called mi after e outing . telling mi how bi is feeling n ask mi to b gd to him oso . cos they can c bibi veri hapi when hanging out wif mi . dear was swit tt day . i love him .

sat n sun didnt mit up wif bibi . cos he wrking over at tpy . miss him so badly lors .

alrite . shall stop here ler . tis wk de will b updated on tis coming sunday . stay tuned wor . though is abit mushy n boring . but tt is my life . bear wif it kie ? hee . jus to sae i simply love my bobo dear so much . we gonna get marry n haf our own baby in 7yrs time . hopefully can b earlier den tt =x hee !

2007-12-27T23:45:00.000+08:00

IT HAF BEEN SOOO LONG SINCE I HAD MY OFF DAYS WELL SPENT =D

tis few days haf been talking on e fone till late nite/early morning . i onli slept 3hrs+ a day n it haf been like 5days since i reali slept well . but i guess everthing is worth it de bahs . wenever i on fone wif bobo , i dun feel tired , even if im , i stil unable to slp . i jus love to talk to him , enjoy every moments tt i spent wif him. he too , he sacrfied his beauty slp n acc mi . thanks bobo . hee

wed morning he came over to my place frm his place which is jurong , jus to fetch mi over to jurong pt for movie . aint he gd ? n we onli hang up e fone at 5+am . yet he stil made e effort to come down . i duno wad to sae but i reali appreciated it . i cooked maggi for him , went bpp walk awhile n den off we go to jurong pt . bought our movie "i m legend" n den went in to harvey at jp .

so funny lor . i saw ken , he didnt change much except tt he look much older =x i knew ken wil msg mi n ask mi who tt guy . i told him bobo is my bf yet he dun belief . but which he is nt my bf lar . fake de lols ! we went to play pool b4 our show start . great game but i aint gd alrdy . too long nv play liaos . after movie , we head over to haf our dinner at some neighbouring kopitiam . chit chat n den i went back hm at 10pm . i reali mus thanks bobo nors . he is reali veri tired yet he chose to acc mi till 10pm , without complaning .

at nite , play mahjong online n on fone wif bobo till 3am . he asked mi to wake him up at 6am but he is such a pig lar . i called 40missed call frm 630 till 7+ b4 he got up frm his bed . but i cant blame him cos he didnt slp much . today which is my 2nd off day , bobo came over to my place early in e morning again . we slp again simply becos we both didnt slp well e day b4 . woke up at 12 n had our lunch over at e market . went back bath n it shopping time ! hee .

rch vivocity , actually wana watch "alvin n e chipmunks" but it damn kua zhang lar . vivo is fulled of ppl , movie slots all is like selling fast . in e end , we dropped e idea of watching movie . instead , we went shopping . i bought myself another new short at pull n bear . my hse de is so loose n grey ler . mit up wif gal n benson over at ikea . had our dinner over dere , bobo n i had fun dere . we was like joking ard . he is my nanny =\ hee .walk ard ikea , went over to chinatown for pool sessions . bobo fetch mi hm n poor darling , haf to go back alone back to jurong . i miss gal . but it seems like we r difting apart ler . mabi becos we too long nv go out tgt ler bahs . haiss .

msg to bobo ; thanks for tis two days . i reali enjoyed myself so much . making u so tired n asking u to come over to my place early in e morning . entertaining n kip mi acc till late nite on fone . went shopping n listening to all my nonsense . getting irritated at mi when we bickered . it a great feeling wenever i m wif u . i felt sense of secure , sense of protection , sense of love =D last nite we had a talk in msn , bascially negative stuff . my tears jus flow down my cheek . today when we went out tgt , im hapi becos it doesnt affect us at all . when i got hm , u gave mi a shock . i didnt expected tt i received tt msg . thanks for giving each other a chance , thanks for willin to step forward . jus like u sae , it gonna b tough for us but i belief , things will wrk out fine if we noe how to plan it . dear , i dun wan u to feel pressure wif mi , i dun wan to b ur burden , i wan u to feel carefree wen u r wif mi . i dun ask for much . i jus love e way u teased mi , hold my hand afraid tt i will fall down , shower mi wif so much care n concern , sacrified ur beauty slp jus to talk to mi . even b4 we got tgt , we alrdy behave as if we r =D n dere is like so much to list . i jus love everything bout u except SMK . hee . i wont force u to quit , but promise tt u will smk less . becos i care =] ur sms for mi reali melted my hart . "271207 @ 2320, i shall declare u mr bobo's gf=) frm now on u're no longer lonely cosh u hab got m now . dun go ard entertaining strangers online frm now on hoh" <3 u !

2007-12-24T23:08:00.001+08:00

HAPI XMAS TO EVERYONE . i noe is abit too early to sae . but well , since i m at hm , i shall blog lors .

received alot of xmas msg . thanks those who sent it to mi . i didnt noe ppl still rem tt i exist ;) tis yr is a veri pathetic yr for mi . especially during my bday n xmas . . . almost all occassions bahs . or mabi shuld i sae is after i broke off wif my ex , den i kidda felt so loner , so lonely . hais . during last yr tis time , i m outside wif my ex , celebrating xmas eve . n we spent e whole nite tgt . it such a nice moment but yet tis yr , i m spending it alone at hm . in a veri empty hse wif onli my mum n i .

i bought back chilli crab n shared it wif my mum for dinner tonite . it haf been so long since i last ate . e feeling is like . . . well , im missing my ex . e last time i ate is wif my bf n mum . or shuld i sae i stil miss him ? or i m onli missing him becos i m lonely ? haiss . i reali duno . but i guess it jus a mixed feeling bahs . tonite , few of my frens asked mi out for party . eugene ask mi go pub wif his classmates , heng leong ask mi go pub wif his frens , shirley ask mi go geylang wif his hubby n frens . hais . but i whr oso dun wan go . i feel like mitting tt someone but he is nt free for mi . he has his own activities ler . sians !

it haf been a mth since i last contact wif ben . i guess he is doing fine wif his stuff le bahs . time reali will heal ( well , mabi for some stuff ) i no longer miss him or yearn for his msg . it haf been a wks or so since ken contact wif mi . haa . i think he found a new young gal who is willing to listen to wadever he sae bahs . i no longer wan him to care for mi anymore . i haf been tinking alot for e past few days . i knew all tis decision i made , i wil nv regret . becos it is for my own good . thanks for those who advice mi wif wad to do . if nt i guess i m stil stuck inside e hole .

i haben been gng out late at nite ler . cos ken is no longer available for mi . sometime will chat on fone wif my frens . but it like once a while . hais . i mis all my frens . but i dun haf time for dem . ytd nite mit up wif brendan aka durian . he waited for mi downstairs for 45mins sia . at first wanna go watch a movie but wen we get there , dun haf movie tt i m keen to watch . in e end , i request to go fetch shirley n den go newton for supper . n he was ok wif it . thanks pal . after tt , he fetch shirley hm n he fetch mi hm as he nid to go his frens hse to play . it was a great nite .

hais . i will stop here ler . dun feel like blogging ler . felt so lonely , so down . everyone is outside wif their loves one , or their frens celebrating xmas , waitin for countdown n having fun . where i m at hm using my com ... take care .

2007-12-20T12:32:00.000+08:00

ytd was my off day ! luckily i made gd use tis time if nt i tink i reali gonna let ppl sae i m nt singaporean . i haben been gng down to town for veri long ler . as in shopping lors . jialat rite ? my life is surrounded wif wrk n wrk . n nth else ler . getin more n more boring lor . i m getting so bored .

afternoon went PS mit up wif eugene . had sakae sushi for our lunch . omg ! i tink i damn turtle lor . now den i noe e buffet got youth de promotion ler . cheaper den i always eat e adult packages lor . LOLS . now i noe ler ! nx time can eat cheaper de n same amount . but i tink i wont go n eat e buffet liaos . i go eat is like wasting money de nors . nv eat as much as b4 ler . abit onli den i canot take it ler . si bei jialat . haha ! acc him to starhub do smth den we went over to taka get present for my colleague .

eugene wanted to get mont blant hp pouch but too bad , his iphone cant get in . den he jiatao no mood sia . went to gucci n other store , nth to his liking . haha ! but i got sia ! i saw 1 gucci bag n i m so in love wif it lar . though it quite old model but i like it simple n class . $850 ler . almost got e urge to buy immediatly lor . but tinkin bout e dip course , i hold myself back . cos if i used up e $ , i nid more time to save up for my dip . den till e end , nv go study again . hai . i reali duno wad i wan sia . shuld i go further my studies ? or shuld i jus wrk n wrk ? anway i love sales line so much . haf been 2yrs since i wrked in retail line . but in order to survive in sg , u mus haf cert . if nt u can get to no whr . or mabi i shuld find a rich guy n marry off . LOLS . good idea. anyone haf any guys intro ? whaha !

bought mini swiss knife for my colleague as his bday present . terence came n fetch mi over to east coast park n i acc him ate his dinner n chit chat awhile b4 he head to his appointment n i oso heading toward my colleague's chalet . thanks terence =D we knew each other for almost 3yrs+ but we onli got to mit up twice nia . so pathetic rite ? haha . he sae mus c fate de . hmmm , sae until fate , reali sia . jus now i was talking to my gan kor , den he sae he was at east coast park wif his fren last nite at chalet oso . n ytd i actually wanna call him but in e end , i dun wan disturb cos ask him out is like damn difficult lar . so u c lor . fate . . . when will my fate wif my guy come ? LOLS . i sound like despo sia .but now i m leading great in my life though i will feel sad n lonely at times . i guess it nature for ppl to feel tis way bahs .

chalet , bbq n cutting bday cake was great . saw alot of my ex colleagues at northpt . chit chat wif dem n i miss dem so much lar . asking dem when will e renovation b done ? i wanna go back to my home . LOLS . i reali miss tt place . gd environment , gd sales , gd ppl =D was nt suppose to stay overnite de but hais . tinkin bout e cab fare reali will kill ppl lor . imagine normally i took cab frm east coast back to my hse , it ard $15 den now wif e midnite charge n everything , cfm over $25 nors . so expen for mi to pay . in e end , 1 of my ex colleague oso stay nearby mi den we decide to stay til nx morning den take cab hm . at least cheaper . LOLS . but e chalet veri lil go . cos is a last min plan . so far , so good . i enjoyed myself alot . wif stephen , his gf , his cousin , wenjie n mi =D played daidee , drink vodka , drink beer . sometime reali mus take sometime to relac ur own body . so tt u wont feel so stress up .

hee ! great news for myself ler . b4 i haben enter e chalet door , stephen was like -.-" U SLIM DOWN SO FAST AHS . . . got lost 10kg an0t . haha ! i sae no lar . onli ard 8kg . wah peng . tt mean last time i reali fat sia =x haha ! den went into e rm , saw his cousin andy . he oso saw mi b4 twice in pub . den his 1st reaction , NI SLIM DOWN HEN DOU LE . u nv eat ahs ? LOLS ! i feel so hapi lar . but it is stil nt my ideal size . still nid to buck up n i onli left 1mth+ to achieve my target . last nite ate alot of bbq food , jialat . cfm gain 1kg , nid to do smth bout it liaos . haha . i gonna end here liaos . haf to do mask den take a afternoon nap ler . tata miss everyone !

2007-12-18T23:22:00.000+08:00

1wks+++ gone . i haf been coming online veri regular late at nite yet i m so lazy to blog . i duno y . whenever i start on something , i tend to let it go halfway . i cant do it like forever . example: my blog . . . at first , i m so eager to finish doing my blogskin , start my 1st blog entry den after tt , i simply too lazy or jus tired of updating my blog . haiss . i reali scare lor . if i always haf tis kidda of mindset , i guess i will nt go any further . my future will b gone >.<

wrking was bad . colleagues seems nt frendly at all . i duno how to sae but they dun seems to haf any warm heart . they do alot of sales , but when they c their colleague dun haf sales , they stil go snatch e cust lor . is like they dun even wanna gif u chance lors . sian lor . i hate tis kidda of environment although i noe it common . always my manager sae we wrked as a team . yes , we do wrked as a team when we do stock , but when it come to sales , everything changed . simply veri selfish . hais . forget bout wrk . i tink i gave too much of my time to my wrk n neglect my frens . n they dun reali noe how to treasure mi . they took mi for granted . haiss sad.

last wed , went out mit up wif a fren . had drink at pub wif his frens . so bored lor . i jus sit dere n drink n drink . nv do anything much . his frens i oso duno anyone . in e end , i got myself so drunk tt i puked everything out . hais . was reali a bad nite . totally duno how to describe my feeling . fri n sat after wrk , mit up wif my sec sch fren . chit chat den off i go back hm . my life is reali getting more n more boring lar . my life is surrounded wif wrk n wrk n wrk . frens n family neglected . guy frens = zero 0 . i dun even haf a guy fren who i can reali talk to after i lost matt . hais . dun wish to tink so much ler .

btw , i miss regina gal ( jus got to c her , she came to my wrkplace find mi) . i miss krissy n kyrene ! been mths since i last mit up wif dem . i miss sharlene ! always sae wanna go eat sushi until nv de . i miss eugene ! my buddy . . . who always acc mi eat gd food . i miss my ex colleagues in northpt . 1mths+ i haf been seperated wif dem . another 11mths to go . i miss shirley though i always c her at wrk ! but we r drifting apart . . . haiss . simply i MISS everyone lar ! write till here bahs . tmr off day . got to go east coast chalet for my ex colleague bday celebration . tonite haf to crack my head as to wad to get him for bday present . . . stress ahs !!! byeee .

2007-12-10T21:24:00.000+08:00

2 wks of wrking non stop . it actually tiring mi . but i m feelin much betta den b4 though i m so weared off n terribly sick . when i m veri veri bz at wrk , i no longer tink of ben , ken n anyone else . i no longer contact wif both of dem le . as i c no reason to brk up a new marriage n a guy who is nt interested in mi at all where he onli wanna take advantage of a young gal .

hais . now all i wanna do is to earn alot alot of $$$ for mi to spend , for mi to go oversea , for mi to further my studies , for mi to do wadever i wan !!! i jus wanna concentrate to wrk n do more sales . i dun mind wrk whole mth without off day . give mi OT $$ can le . off day i oso cope myself at hm , doing nth . might as well go wrk n earn more $$ . things aint e same like b4 . i no longer nid any guy to b dere for mi . though i always hope tt someone will b dere to shower mi wif care , wif love n concern , but . . . it always e opposite . i dun ask for much . cos i noe , e more i hope , e more disappointed i will b . so i might as well dun care bout anything n let natures take its course .

today was my off day after 2wks of continuing wrking n torturing myself . haha . but i m glad tt i noe alot of new colleagues . nt jus my new outlet colleagues but oso those who i noe during e rdshow at atrium last wk . sally auntie was veri good n attentive to mi . she knew i m a veri lazy gal , jus waitin for sales to drop yet she nv blame mi . instead , she stil shower mi wif care , bought breakfast for us , afraid tt we will b hungry . n i got even closer wif other colleagues .

and oso nt forgetting my ex colleagues at northpt . i stil miss them so much . today i went for my facial n den drop by to gif dem their xmas present . at first wannna buy individual present for each one but it reali cracked my brain so much tt i duno wad to get for dem . in e end , i ended up wif chocolates for all of dem . it great to c dem stil goin on so good wif their sales . alot of changes over dere n i can feel tt they r all so stress over e renovation stuff . so sad le . when they c mi , all sae i slim down le but no longer cute like b4 . so sad lor ! nt cute le . haiss . hopefully by nx yr nov i stil wrking at tis company , so tt i can go back to northpt n enjoy those moments wif dem . i miss n love dem so much lar !!!

anyway , recently i bought myself a new watch titus for $300 after discount frm kah feng n 6mths supply of new contact lens $140 , facial cream $220 . i m a hapi gal though i gonna b broke soon =x nx target . . . might b a new bag =D gtg le . dun reali like to stay online alrdy . cya guys . n enjoy ur coming xmas . tata miss everyone . . .

2007-12-01T01:41:00.000+08:00

wooohoo . i got back my $500 liaos . all thanks to ken n mi myself ! hee . i m hartless n cruel euff to squeeze ben return mi my $$$ . if nt he sure drag until sae no $ pay mi back. i can buy my new watch or bag ler . i m a hapi ger =D

tis whole wk , nth much happened . if i rem correctly , last fri was my off day . went out wif heng leong , watched "the kingdom" n den dinner went back to his hse for dinner . his mum cooked so much food for us . is yummy lar . so nice but too bad i on diet . cant eat alot =x ard 11pm , ken came over n fetch mi hm . he gave mi $ n ask mi buy supper for my mum cos she haben ate anything e whole nite . so good h0h ? act act de =\ LOLS.

den tue got my off day . mrning wake up , went over to salon for a hair cut as well as hair dye . total damage $68 . was suppose to mit up wif sharlene to jb but 2 gals go , abit dangerouss . in e end nv mit wif her cos she go out wif her besties . i kidda of duno dem so i nv go along . wrk was quite ok so far . at least all my colleague did talk to mi ler . all like normal normal ler . no longer stranger to mi liaos =D sales was alrite nia . bad den northpt . but stil ok . cos i got good luck following mi . hee .

got my pay today ! so damn hapi . euff to buy my gucci bag , or my lv wallet , or mabi my titus watch . stil tinking which one to buy . cos i wanna save $ to further my studies oso . kidda confused liaos . im like no future like tt nia . my ex manager sae dere a increment of pay for mi . though lil but at least betta den nth . hee !

i m stil thinking bout my future . wad haf i reali achieve ? do i noe tt i changed alot ever since i broke up wif ah wei ? i duno wad i reali wan . real happiness or short period of happiness ? i like ppl who pamper , care n dote on mi like lil princess . a short happiness wif no future . or mabi i shuld reali sit down n think of wat i reali wan . haiss . blog again nx wk .

2007-11-22T20:30:00.000+08:00

im soooooooo sorri ! haben been bloggin for e past 1wks . haf been quite lazy to on my com n come online . simply becos i too tired . alot of shits gng on in my life rite now . n i cant figure out how to solve it . it jus so complicated .

wrked for almost a wk in e new environment . nt veri hapi but wad to do ? yishun haf to do renovation n haf to post out . if not i wish i can stay over dere lor . sales here so simply sux ! ppl here all malaysian . nt sae i dun like malaysian ppl but some is reali veri shit lor ! she alrdy knew tt e cust is i served b4 de yet she stand dere n close my sales . is like wth lor . $10 commission ler . hais . den i kip telling myself nvm . ppl nid to support her kids n family . treat it tt i m donating to her lor . haha . hope 1yr past fast if nt i will wan to change job again . haha . anyone haf any gd job offer to intro mi an0t ? anyting oso can but pay mus b high high =x

wed early mrning acc my mum to polyclinic as she got appointment dere . after tt went for my facial appt . go back look for my ex colleague , kip complaining n nagging to dem . haa ! i miss them so much lar . though i onli wrked dere for 4mths+ but is as though i m dere for veri long le . i jus love their companion . i nv complained much bout dem b4 becos they reali treat mi veri good . mit up wif regina gal at orchard . walk walk ard n my mum called mi . sae e nurse called ask her immediatly mus go to hospital A&E . so gal acc mi over n doc sae my mum had veri high blood pressure of 230/118 . so scary lor . after tt , eugene came along .

waited for regina's fren to come den we went to haf our dinner at chinatown dere . actually wanted to bring gal to haf a gd meal as a treat for her bday celebration but who noe , bad things always happened at e wrong time . after tt , eugene acc mi walk back to find my mum . in e end , her blood pressure went down den doc sae she can discharge frm e hospital but thur haf to go back polyclinic for blood test . veri ma fan lar . i called my company n told dem tt i haf to take urgent leave . they stil nid mi to gif proof lor . it though as if i m lyin over tis kidda of serious things lor . shit dem ! they dun trust mi la ! by rite , ken sae other outlet dun perform tis kidda of thing . mabi diff manager diff ways of doing things bahs . thanks eugene , regina , benson , heng leong , matt , ken for being so concerned bout my mum n mi . i m fine n same goes to my mum . jus tt she haf to go back for reg check up .

msg ben n ask him to return mi my $ cos i reali nid it for bills but he sae he got no $$ to return mi now . i was like wtf . when u nid $ , i lend u . now e owner nided $ yet unable to retrieve it back . so angry lar ! i alrdy disappointed in him n no longer haf any hope on him ler . i alrdy decided to gif up loving him ever since mon nite 19/11/07 . he showed his true colour n i cant c any future if i get tgt wif him . mabi both our thinking is diff . 9yrs age gap is alot . i guess i nid few mths to heal my wound . meanwhile , i dun wan to get into any r/s alrdy . i jus wan to stay free though i always so envy couple hanging so lovely ard . hais ! but it ok ! i haf my frens all ard mi . hee .

nx 2 wks will b a veri busy wk for mi . having rdshow at sitex show at expo n another rdshow downstairs our shop . nid full manpower so no off days for mi . burnt ! sob . but it ok . earn more $ so tt i can hurry go for my holiday trip . i nid a brk frm everything ! anyone wanan go bangkok ? it either dec end or nx yr ler . do let mi noe ler . i wan to haf some fun . hee ! tmr off , mitting up wif heng leong . he wanna bring mi back hm for dinner . haa ! cant wait to c his mum n family . so fun lovely .

i miss everyone . . . xmas i m free frm wrk !!! anyone haf any xmas celebration ? LET MI NOE HOH . i wanna haf a enjoyable n memorable nite for xmas tis yr . =D

2007-11-15T20:15:00.000+08:00

y mus he always torture mi ? y mus he always tink tt it ok for him to turn down those appointment ? y mus he cant tink in my shoes ? is he taking mi for granted ? y ? r all guys like tt ? I HATE IT ! i HATE tt kidda of feeling ! it reali torturing mi n hurtin mi so bad tt i cant even breath well ! y mus i fall for a guy tt dun gif a fuck damn bout mi ? m i reali so tiny in his hart tt he cant b bothered ? den y in e 1st place , he wan to find mi back ? wad is he trying to do ? hurt mi like how his ex hurt him ? WTH ! i cant take it anymore lar ! i turning MAD soon !!!

2007-11-14T11:25:00.000+08:00

12th nov07
start my wrk at my new enviromnet . ppl dere aint frendly at first . mabi becos they duno mi bahs . den luckily got 1 gal i noe her during expo rdshow . she talked to mi n lead mi to whr to punch card etc . as for my ex colleague , tt guy who posted to here early in sep was nt reali frendly anymore . he got his own circle of colleague . all in veri gd term wif him , mainly they r all malaysians . all talking in their own dialect cantonese . i do noe how to listen but duno how to speak . wad a stupid gal -.-"

mit up wif shirley gal for lunch n dinner . it felt so good having someone close having meals wif u . but she n mi kidda nt veri close ler ever since she got married . but still , i love her lar =x 1st day of wrk , sales nt bad . at least got 2k i m alrdy veri pleased le . cos is like damn quiet lor . cold n silent . LOLS . OH YA ! 1 big new for myself . HAHA . rem my few entries back , i did wrote bout tt 34yrs old guy ? he actually is a married guy lar . he tot i dumb , will nv find out so tt he can take advantage of mi sia . den luckily i was dere lar . 1 promoter last time wrked wif him b4 den was like telling us tt he jus got married during april . someting like tt . den i msg him sae i knew he is a married guy . LOLS . he finally admitted . but , he sae he always telling mi tt mi n him is like bro or sis . i was like WTF . den wad for u sae u wan to haf s wif mi , wad for u wan to lie bout u getting married ? stupid rite ? den he nv reply after tt . WHAHA .

hais . last nite , ben msged mi . ask mi nt to go wrk n kip him acc , but i rejected . i m sad but i cant do anything . who will pon wrk when it is jus ur 1day at a new outlet ? wad will ppl tink of u ? always mc gal or always taking leave gal ?

13th nov07
2nd day at wrk . sales oso nt bad . sold 1 fridge , 1 washer , n some big items . guess almost 2k again bahs . was happi la . but hope it always maintain tis way so tt my money wil b rolling into my pocket . haha ! had a free lunch sponsored by diana marmi . HEE . dinner had wif diana marmi n shirley . n e world is like so small . they actually knew each other oso . haha ! den chit chatting was fun too . in e afternoon , ben msged mi again . ask mi if i can leave earlier , as he felt lonely n nid someone acc . in e end , i oso nv mit up wif him . it always like tis . when things gonna happened , it sure became bad things again . ALWAYS ! is like i m always kana put aeroplane by him . he always sae will call mi back , will mit up wif mi , in e end , alot of shit things will come out . causing mi so disappointed . he nv knew how i felt b4 . if tis time reali e same things happened , i sure will jus hack care n nv bother alrdy lor ! ARGG angry !!!

14th nov07
WORST DAY IN MY LIFE ! I SHED TEARS FOR U , MY HART IS PAINFUL , JUS LIKE A KNIFE JUS STAB INTO MY HART ! MY TEARS JUS ROLL LIKE IT NOBODY's BIZ ! Y MUS I MET U ? IT SO TERRIBLE LIVING IN TIS KIDDA OF LIFE WHERE U DUN BOTHER BOUT MI ! ALWAYS PUTTING MI AEROPLANE , ALWAYS LAST MIN SMTH HAPPENED ! HAF U PUT URSELF IN MY SHOES ? U ASK MI DUN SAE LIKE TIS , BUT HAF U HEAR MY HART CRYING SO DEEP TT I CAN JUS DIE LIKE TT ? Y MUS I LOVE U SO DEEP ? WHEN DEN CAN EVERYTHING END ?!!!!!?!??!?!

matt : pls leave mi alone ! pls stop loving mi . pls jus forget mi . i dun wan hurt anyone . i dun wan ppl to feel hurt like how i m feeling rite now . u haf alot of frens wif u . stay strong . i noe u r a gd guy . but i cant b wif u . i m someone in my mind . i m sorri for being so close wif u . made ur hart move about . im sorri ! blame mi ! jus pretend we nv knew each other b4 . thanks for always dere for mi when i nid to whine . thanks !

last updated at 7pm ... might b mitting e 34yrs old guy at nite after his wrk . i rather go out wif him den waitin for someone who dun bother mi !

2007-11-11T18:30:00.000+08:00

last day slacking at hm ler . tmr haf to go back to wrk liaos . somemore to new outlet . i hope i can get used to e new environment bahs . but i m scare lor . imagine all e ppl dere , u dunno anyone dere . onli like 1 person dere i noe onli . duno how sales over dere , duno how e ppl dere , r they frendly or r they nt frendly ? can they help mi when i m in trouble ? in doubt ? my ex-colleague all was like telling mi dun worri . e ppl dere veri gd de , n they veri easy to communicate de . i mean ya la , mabi to u guys , is easy but might nt b mi . cos frm wad i noe , i m e youngest over dere . n their age is like damn big lar . can b my dad or mum de =\ haha ! all tis is like running thru my mind ever since last nite . i haf to bed early tonitez as last few days morning den slp . was crazy chionging e stupid game online .

jus came back frm bpp . mit up wif my cousin's insurance agent to talk bout my plan . was quite relac wif dem chatting wif mi . at least they r my cousin's frens . someone who can fully trusted . oso quite relieved as i m done wif wad i wan to do for e past 1yr . been dragging n dragging tis matter till now . n finally i decided to buy ! cos i m like so sway tis yr . kip injured on my leg . sian lor . if i buy earlier , i can claim lor ! haha ! mabi i shuld fall down again n injure myself . LOLS . if can , i rather dun wan injured . so many prob , haf to take mc , haf to pay medical bill , no sales . veri ma fan lar . so god bless mi pls . let mi haf a gd yr nx yr . i promise to b a gd ger =D

anyone noe whr i m heading to ? place tt is fulled wif happiness or place tt is fulled wif sadness n pain ? i cant even ans myself . it haf been so long since i ask myself tis qn . m i like wad matt was saying ? m i tt train tt is like goin to crash anytime ? or can i stop e train frm operationg so tt i wont hurt ? hais ! i duno . mabi time will tell everything . hope he is someone worthy of my love ! if nt tis kida of guy , i rather i nv knew b4 .

ps : matt , i duno wad wrongs wif u today . someting nt rite . since e day i noe u , i nv c u so moody b4 . nv c u so stress up b4 . m i causing u pain ? if it mi , i m sorri . i didnt mean to sae bout him in front of u . u oso dun wan mi to put on a mask when i m talking to u rite ? i rather tell u how i tink , so tt u wont kip guessing . if it is bout ur family , jus hack care like how i do . my mum always nag at mi when she is at hm . asking mi do tis do tt , kip scolding mi for sitting in front of my com doing nth . i will jus let her nag , 1 ear go in , 1 ear go out lor . dun take it to hart can liaos . everything gonna b fine . coming thur is ur bday le , cheer up kie ? =)) 1 yr a time onli . mus go out n enjoy ur buddy n frens mah . wont b able to always chit chat wif u ler , i haf to start wrk le . but if u nid a listening ear , i m jus a call away =D takee caree .

2007-11-10T13:26:00.000+08:00

haiss . early in e morning , i haf to crack my head to tink . n was so suprised to c tt -.-" it haf been days since tis happened . i mean i love to c tt but haiss . nvm . i jus hope i can brush it off asap . guys , pls dun ask mi y unless i tell u guys . will update more at nite . 1.30pm . . .

whole day at hm nth to do den go play e stupid gunbound game . damn bored , is like gng back to e past where i will chiong for maplestory or gunbound or rubbish game . when i play game , i will tend to forget wad happen ard my surrounding . although it cant b permanent , but at least it a temporary release pain .

it haf been 5mths or rather considered 6mths i m in tis company . n my feeling for him is like stil dere , gng on so strong . today reali nv expected tt he will msg mi n sae sori bout last time , for causing mi so much pain . haiss . i m onced confused again . mind getting out of nowhr again . can any ger under my situation able to gif mi some advices ? no one noe e pain n hurt i m struggling !!

he was now under alot of stress , due to wrk n personal issue . i jus came back after mitting him for like 15mins . he borrowed $500 frm mi , claiming tt he nid 2.5k to pay his cousin's lawyer fee (i do noe his cousin is in trouble . 2wks back i tink) n he is so swit again . is guy all behaving tis way ? when they reali nid something frm u , they super ultra swit n gd to u . when they dun nid anything , they jus fuck care bout u , let alone reply to ur sms or call . hais ! some may sae i m foolish , $500 is quite a big sum , m i able to retrieve back my money frm him ? will he deny ? i dun haf any black n white paper written , dun haf any witness . hais . thruout my mind , i nv thought of tt . becos i wan to trust him . becos my love for him is geniune . he said he will call mi once he is back hm frm his aunt hse . hope he will bahs .

jus now on his car , he asked mi to b available on 3rd n 4th of dec as tt day is his bday . i was like damn scare liao lor . den i sae i dun wan lar , 2 times he oso dua mi le , last min got things to settle . he promise tt day gonna b a successful date . i do hope soo . b4 i get down his car , he gave mi a patch of kiss on my cheek . tis time i nv sae no . haiss . i duno . well , i dun wanna tink much alrdy . i jus wan concentrate to do gd sales , so tt money will start rolling by itself . change outlet , so as nt to c him often . praying sooo hard !! tmr mitting up wif my cousin's insurance agent to buy thing frm him . cya , time to go play my game ! ppl , pls tag n gif comment . love love =D

2007-11-09T21:23:00.000+08:00

been hell long since i last blog . ever since june . hmmmm , let mi recall past 4mths things .

broke up wif my bf on 4th sep07 . everyone tot we r so lovely but yet no one noe wad e truth behind . i haf been tgt wif him for 9mths . thru tis 9mths , dere r gd n bad . for e 1st 4mths , our r/s is reali veri swit , like honeymoon period . but after tt , things started to change . almost everday , we can quarrel over small thing , communication brkdown . is like so hard to talk wif each other . till i couldnt take it anymore tt i suggested to end our r/s . n e worst thing is tt , i nv shed a tears ever since tt day till now . i duno wad wrongs . mabi becos i reali became a cold-blooded person . haiss .

after brking up wif my bf , i realised my hart is heading towards another person which i ownself oso nv notice . he is my colleague , someone i dun talk to him at all . but e feeling is veri strong . whenever i c him , my hartbeat will b pumping veri veri fast . as if my hart will drop out anytime lor . hais . den alot of things happened . awhile contact , awhile nv contact , awhile contact back . is like damn tired lar . i reali duno tt kidda of feeling . till now , i m trying my best to forget bout him . i reali veri lethagic to love him . veri difficult to love someone tt he dun bother bout u . haiss .

sometime i reali felt tt u can nv c ppl by it cover . becos u will nv noe wad tt person is thinking . jus like i knew a guy who is like 15yrs older den mi n happened to b my colleague lar . at first i tot he was a nice guy , willing to help mi out when i m in trouble . but who noes , he actually wanna take advantage of mi . hais . dun talk bout him liaos . i was like so lucky lor =DD so gal , beware of guys who is surrounding u . they might b another wolf hiding behind e blanket .

ALRITE . stop all tis rubbish liaos . let mi blog bout wad happen tis few days bahs .
tis mon was like so sway for mi . hais . 2+pm , someting bad happened to mi . when i was like helping e deliveryman take out stock frm storerm , i close e door n 1 HUGE metal bar directly hit onto my feet lar . den immediatly u can c e blueblack liao lor . was like HELL pain lar . but i nv cry . tt was like so sudden lor . went to c company doc , n she gave mi 3days mc to rest . rch hm , i told my mum bout it . she was like "HUH ? again hurt on ur feet ? u reali veri sway lar . wrk tis company , injured 2times liaos . somemore nt those small injuring lor . is BIG injuring" i ask her dun anyhow sae lor . den tt day , happened tt my dad bring my 2 tortoise to release to e sea . becos we dun wan to take care of dem le . too smelly , my mum n i dun even dare to wash e water daily . we scare they will bite =x haha !

u all noe de lar . old ppl always haf e old thinking . cos tt day my mum oso accidently broke her boss's mug . cost like $30+ . she veri superstitious de ma . den she recalled back 7yrs ago when we oso give up our another 2 tortoise . den bad things happened to our family . my dad had a mistress outside till now lor . den now both of us had bad things on us again . haiss . but is like so conincident.

thur n fri was my off day . today , i went to c doc again but tis time , matt acc mi over . n tt doc is so gd lar . he noe my feet haben heal , he gif mi 2 more days mc to let mi rest at hm b4 i go back to start wrk . nx mon i will b transferred to new outlet , new environment . kidda scare oso . after doc , matt suggested gng over to ele's hse nearby as he is nt in his correct mind =x had lunch over at greenridge shopping centre . i miss e food dere lor . ever since sec 5 . it haf been 2yrs+ ler . went bpp as ele wan to buy earpiece . head over to find ong , my old colleague n c how e environment . was like so quiet lor . super quiet . duno dere reali got sales anot sia .

saw alot of my old frens , old colleague . tt kidda of feeling was so good lor . last time when i stil wrking at mini toons , i always talk to dem , haf my meal wif dem . miss all of dem lor . luckily they all can stil rem mi . hee . den spent my whole evening over at shirley's shop . chit chat wif dem lor . saw e camera promoter n oso talked wif him . he damn funny lar . he noe some of my story ma . den i continue to tell him den he was like luffing off his ass lor . i was like -.-" lor . went back hm at 8+ , rest awhile n here i m bloggin . noe how long i spend to write tis stupid entries ? i haf to crack my brain for 1hr+ b4 i finished off my entries . bo bian , shar is complaing tt i haf blog yet i dun blog often . LOLS . sorri lar gal . i done wad u wan mi to do ler . rem to tag h0h =))

ps : to matt , i m sorri for being so quiet today . mabi becos today is e 1st time we mit up , kidda shy n duno wad to talk oso . hope nx time things will b gng smoothly . im sorri tt jus now i haf to leave u guys alone n jus left without saying bye . my sis got some prob tt y i haf to kip her acc . sorri ahs ! cannot angry wif mi h0h , or blame mi ahs =D thanks for acc mi today to see doc . ur dec bbq , do let mi noe e date so tt i can c whether i can make it anot . hee . alrite , it time to play game wif u ler . LOLS . finally ending tis stupid entry ! LOLS !!!

2007-11-08T22:20:00.001+08:00

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